Ramblings to myself...

Im having a little dilemma with myself because since graduation last July, I have wanted to be able to use my degree in a professional setting (I use it everyday with my own children) and be able to get paid accordingly. I would really like to become an assistant Director or possibly even Director of a childcare facility (or preschool), but it would most likely be full-time work. I love to be around children, but actually taking care of other people's children all day then coming home to my own children, I just dont think I would be as patient and understanding with my own children. Being an Assistant Director, I learned during my internship last winter, does some care of the children, but also over sees everything and everyone in the facility, which I think I would do well. Having 2 young children, not yet in full-time school, I have to take care of them as my first priority. I want to work using my degree, but I feel that I would sacrifice some of my children's quality time with me and watching them grow, to help others people's children... so does that really make sense for me to find a full-time (or even part-time) job in a child care setting? I'm also a little frustrated right now about where I work currently, which is Target. I started out as seasonal, but then was asked to stay on. I like being able to get out of the house for 15 hours a week, doing something pretty mindless, but the thing I am really peeved about is that I am getting paid the SAME AMOUNT as this guy that I work with who has NEVER had a job before, and just barely graduated high school, which is BARELY over MINIMUM WAGE!!! It's not like my job is hard, but then when people look at me or talk to me like I'm stupid and have no education, or have no brains because I work as a cashier at Target REALLY gets on my nerves! Is it wrong to feel entitled to get paid more because I have a freaking bacehlor's degree? And yes I am choosing to work there, I just wish my hard work would be acknowledged just a little!!

2.5 weeks until our 5 Year Anniversary!! Crazy

As Pat and my 5 year wedding anniversary quickly approaches, I can appreciate that this is a pretty big milestone in our lives. In a class in college, I learned that statistics have shown that around the 5 year mark of marriage, there is a large increase in divorces. This is when the "honeymoon phase" is over, and "real life" has begun. I have already seen this happening around me. Nevertheless, I am very happy with my little family and where I am right now in my life. I look back at the past 5 years and it was a rough, and I mean a ROUGH start, as everyone around me seemed to glide effortlessly through their first few years of marriage, there were MANY times when I really thought we wouldn’t make it through. But through all the MANY trials that we have experienced the past 5 years I think they have brought us closer together. I am so happy that I can continue my life with Pat and our 2 beautiful children and I hope we can be together for many more years to come!

8 month old boy

Happy 8 months to our little Preston Boy!!!